sick!

I'm sick! I haven't been sick in years, it's just a cold but still~ It's a good day to stay home and do nothing but rest and catch up little projects~ So I got the laundry ,a crochet project done....now for a nap :)

Lauren is off to Nor Cal for softball, I do feel bad not going, but we just couldn't afford it (this time) I will be going to Oregon in a little over a week, I can't wait to see her....

Other then that, nothing more, a little drama with my brother this morning, too much to get into.. But I am not letting me get me down or upset.....

Sorry that's it for now, gotta get some rest!

i see blue skies~

I do, I really do~ you see for the past 3 maybe 4 days we have been hit with this storm, at first no snow just gloomy days but Sunday night, it all started.... and yesterday I don't think it stopped until late last night~ So after all that and a warm pot of minestrone soup we made it to Tuesday & BLUE SKIES!

Yesterday was a exciting day here, Fed Ex delivered my IPHONE yeh

So here is what I think so far, I think I love it~ the jury is still out, cause well I was at home all day and we have wifi so I was connected that way, it was just like my Itouch ( can you tell I am a MAC girl & I don't mean the makeup) I downloaded all my apps & ICal but no music, books or movies yet, I want to figure out what I want~ Today will be the test, I will be at work most of the day and we do not have internet, wifi there~ I will let you know~

I leave in 2 weeks for my big adventure! I am getting excited, can't wait to see the kid, get out of the cold & see some softball, hopefully good softball but softball none the less~ It will be almost 2 months ahead of what they play here in Montana~ So hopefully good roads & weather will be in my future~

Well I better get going, get ready for work~ Take care & blessings to all who read this~

what are you supposed to do?

What are you supposed to do...... when the man your supposed to spend the rest of your life with is just so angry and negative?

Last night he told me he isn't going to try, try to please me, try to be there for me,nothing~ ]sigh[

I know, he hates his job, and I am sorry for that.... I am sorry he has to punch a time clock, work for a person that disrespects him, but IT'S NOT MY FAULT! I sometimes feel guilty, cause I work 1 or 2 days a week doing the wax thing, and 2 days (a few hours) at the Hallmark thing.... But I pay my share of our bills, my kids college, plus extra cash for her, my stuff, groceries and alot of everyday expenses..... I don't eat lunch out every day~

I don't want to make excuses up for him, I have done that all my life when people mistreat me or are mean to me.....or I take the blame, "it's my fault" or he is like this because of me..... BUT NOT THIS TIME!

Sometimes he can be the greatest guy, but it seems that "those" times are getting farther and farther between~

SO WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO?